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Increase My Hunger

8 Dec

Outreach has always been a key component to my Christian walk, ever since I can remember. But over the last few years, the passion I used to have to, “reach the world with the message of the gospel” has died down to ember status.

My appetites for church and scripture are still intact; God is sustaining me, but the fervor I once had is restrained at best.

It kinda scares me to be honest, I want to finish well.

Lord, increase my Hunger for You, help me to fall in love with you all over again, deepen my study and my prayer life, draw me back to Yourself.

Psalm 40:11 As for you, O Lord, you will not restrain your mercy from me; your steadfast love and your faithfulness will ever preserve me!

waiting..

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Contemplating Divorce

6 Dec

I’ve been divorced for a few years now. It was brutal, I wouldn’t wish it on anybody. Fortunately I don’t have many regrets, I went down swinging.

People will tell you that staying together, “for the kids” is never a good idea. I understand the argument but I’ve lived it and my advice to you is this (as long as there aren’t any safety concerns or serious adultery issues) . . . what better reason is there?

It was hard at times there’s no denying that, but I’m grateful for the privilege. Once that window of opportunity shuts, there’s no going back.

If you’re still in the contemplative phase, here’s some tips from Psychologist and Author James Coleman from his book [IMPERFECT HARMONY]

*I will stop looking to my partner as a source of intimacy for now, and maybe forever more.

*I will grieve the loss of the marriage I thought I’d have, and stop bemoaning what I’m not getting from my partner.

*I will work hard to develop my life because that will be the best remedy for resisting my partner’s negative pull on me, or my destructive need of him or her.

*I will work to examine my counter-productive beliefs about marriage as being central to my happiness.

*I will work to keep the tone of my household calm and in control because that is what’s best for my children and me. While I don’t have control over my partner’s behavior, I have control over my own.

*I may have to accept that sex with my partner will be rare, non-existent, or less satisfying than I would like.

*I will give up my addiction to being right.

*I will stop hoping that my partner will change and will stop pushing him or her to change.

Regardless of whether or not you stay together, it’s not just about you anymore. You’re a parent, and that will never change.

Invest copious amounts of emotional capital in your children no matter what’s going on in that house. Just because you guys can’t get your act together doesn’t mean they don’t deserve your full and undivided attention. It’s not their fault.

They need us more than you may think.

Create memorable moments, one-on-one, with each of them. Look for things to praise them for, opportunities to talk and more importantly to listen.

They need a map, you’re it.

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All Things Pertaining

1 Dec

Psalms 40:1-3 I waited patiently for the LORD;
he inclined to me and heard my cry. 2 He drew me up from the pit of destruction, out of the miry bog, and set my feet upon a rock, making my steps secure. 3 He put a new song in my mouth, a song of praise to our God. Many will see and fear, and put their trust in the LORD.

I’ve been camped here for a while now, can’t seem to get past it. There’s so much substance! I’ve been struggling in a few key areas for the last few months and this Psalm pretty much covers everything. I’ve decided to break it down into parts and do a little meditating.

My personal favorite version is the ESV (English Standard Version), it’s straightforward and from what I can gather the most accurate.

Throughout the Bible it speaks of God’s sovereignty over creation, everything from the birds of the air to all things pertaining to salvation. The older I get the more I’m beginning to understand how blessed we are for that fact. None of us would make it otherwise.

Unstoppable . . . a sneak peak.

29 Nov

..still workin’ on it, I’m what you could call edit retentive lol. This is a journey we’re both on, welcome to the madness.

“Chris was passed out in his truck. He’d been putting in sixteen hours days for nearly two weeks, trying to finish the job he and John picked up at old man Dones’ barn. It was about finished, so he decided to do a little celebrating the night before.

He wasn’t too worried about the guys, but he did feel a little awkward not being out there with them. What they were doing took tactical training and experience on the battlefield, the kind a civilian-minded man just wasn’t prepared for.

Suddenly he was awakened by the sound of somebody tapping on his window.

It was Lisa.

He took a quick look in the mirror, opened the door and stepped out, “Hey, uh . . . what are you doin’ up here?”

“I’ve been looking everywhere for you, I had an interesting talk with Nancy last night.”

“Oh yeah what about?”

“Christopher were you even thinking about the boys?”

“Oh,” he said with a smirk.

“What if something happened to you?”

“I’ got life insurance.”

Chris!”

“Relax, I’m just kiddin’ . . . so how’s Romeo?”

She looked down at the ground, “He left about six months ago, of course you’d know that if—”

“Wait a minute left?

“Yes, the boys were devastated but they didn’t feel right talking to you about it. I can see you haven’t changed much.”

“That ain’t fair Lisa. I tied one on so what, I’ve been workin’ my ass off out here!”

“Where’ve I heard that before?”

“Look if all you did was come out here to—”

“It doesn’t matter Chris, we miss you . . . I miss you.”

[The Final Outcome . . . When pigs fly]

The Final Outcome . . . When Pigs Fly

28 Nov

For the record I’m already working on the sequel to my newest book Boundless Devotion. There are not only issues that need to be resolved in terms of the story itself, I kinda fell in love with a few of the characters. I know it’s just a book but writers are funny like that lol. They deserve closure and a happy ending in my opinion.

There is the possibility that I’ll need filler though to make it a full length. If that’s the case I’ll just update the original.

This morning I was brainstorming ideas for a cover.

This may take a while. 😂

I’ll keep you updated. Of course if you’ve already purchased it you’ll be able to download the new revision for free. Thanks for your support . . . you know who you are.

Boundless Devotion

25 Nov

A few folks who’ve read my new book have voiced concerns over some of the language. They wonder why, as a Christian, I thought it necessary to include expletives. My answer is simple; it can be summed up in one word, “authenticity.”

I’ve never served in the military, so I had to do my research. If you’re a veteran, know one, or have even spent any length of time in a locker room, you know what I’m talking about.

Meaningful dialog is hard to capture. I spent three years working on plots, subplots, developing characters, narrative propulsion, pouring over every word, every scene . . . every nuance, it’s a never ending process.

Even when you’re done you’re always second guessing yourself. However I tried hard to write it in such a way as to truly capture the imagination and bring honor to whom it’s due.

I’m sorry if the wording offends the conscience of some. It wasn’t my intent, I really mean that, but ultimately it’s a story of God’s sovereignty and His plan for redemption.

Boundless Devotion ©2017

Change Musik New Video Release!

23 Nov

I’ve been an artist and a promoter of Christian hip hop for a while now, but I’ve been out of the game for a few years. I had a bit of success as an artist but my favorite roll betwixt the two has been promotion; pointing to cats who truly love our kids, that are creating excellence.

One such artist in particular here locally in middle Tennessee is a guy named David Manning and his group Change Musik.

I used to do outreach events. We’d have dancers, graffiti artists, free grocery and mixtape giveaways, music downloads, etc . . . but David is a barber by trade. He used to give free fades before his performance.

It spoke volumes to me.

His group just came out with a new video. I know, I know, “You’re just trying to promote.” True, but it goes deeper than that.

Our culture is veering out of control, mainly because our youth are craving authenticity.

Like my son says, “Keepin it real is a lifestyle.”

David Manning and Steven North are part of the solution.

Click here don’t kid yourself

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